I’m sorry. I can definitely empathize with you. There’s nothing worst than being in a relationship where you feel you have no voice or control over. The feeling of being underappreciated, undervalued and the loneliness. Oh, the loneliness... it’s the worst. Nothing compares to being married to someone and having them be by your side, yet feeling completely alone and invisible to them.
You’ve been alone for nine years, I’ve been alone for three. The upside is that we have the hobby. It may not be enough for us in the long run...but for now, it is. I wish you well. ❤️